What does a black belt mean to me?
To me a black belt means an accomplishment that I honestly did not expect to get to. More than once I remember telling my mom how much I wanted to quit karate. There were many times that I would have preferred to stay home playing and not go into class. I lost interest in it the higher belt I received. My mother pushed me and pushed me to make my classes. She kept telling me that I had to learn to finish what I started and that meant getting my black belt. She always mentioned that in life you never give up and that is exactly what I have been doing.
I remember exactly the day I received my red belt. Instead of being happy I was scared, no not scared, I was TERRIFIED. I knew that receiving my red belt only meant that I was closer to my black belt test. To me that was a nightmare because I did not feel prepared for the test. Every month that I received a black stripe on my belt I got even more scared because now there was really no way to stop time and avoid doing the black belt test. I have been scared of this test since I was a 3rd Q brown belt. I always doubted all the hard work and dedication that I had put into all my years of karate training and all the time spent by my mother making sure I was in class. Now all that hard work is paying off.
I am extremely close to my black belt and I cannot help but feel not only prepared but also excited and proud of everything I have accomplished. Every time that I go into class and see my black belt on that rack it makes me train even harder to finally be able to tie it around my waist. I must admit that karate is nothing like I thought it was going to be. At four years old I wanted to join karate to become a ninja. I know now that karate and ninjas have very little in common and that is all thanks to the wonderful training I have received from my sensei. I know now that I am not going to become a ninja and I can say without a doubt that earning my black belt is 100 million times cooler. I have worked hard and I feel ready to cross that finish line and make everyone that has supported me and helped all these years feel as proud as I do for finally getting my black belt.
Earning my black belt means finishing what I started as I heard my mother tell me time and time again. Earning my black belt means being a role model for my brother so he can be motivated to work harder so he also one day have the satisfaction of earning his black belt. Earning my black belts means showing my brother that I am not a quitter and neither will he. Earning my black belt means that I DID IT that I earned the right to carry the title of Sensei Edwin!!!!